I am who i am; accept me the way i am or back off

2010-05-27T19:16:00.001+08:00

moved to

here

2010-05-21T13:33:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah baby, momma is back!

2010-05-17T17:17:00.001+08:00

Life oh life, what did you just do to me?

2010-04-10T16:40:00.001+08:00

2010-04-09T20:25:00.001+08:00

2010-04-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

Smile - Uncle Kracker

Ohh you make me smile :)

2010-04-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

Dear neglected blog,

I regret to say this, I have to neglect my blog again due to my final exam which is just around the corner. Life recently haven't had much changes besides the way I look at things again. Went back to Penang and changed the way I looked at things, once again. Exam is just around the corner while I'm busy making plans for June holiday. Bangkok with cousin! Definitely getting a DSLR and Rayban Sunglass. Probably visiting him after his exam. You make me smile ;)

2010-03-20T15:01:00.002+08:00

Hello, my dear neglected blog

I feel alive, again. I believe I have what it takes to move forward and stand up again if I were to fall. Thank you, for being there and to change the way I used to look at things. Thank you, for having me understand that even if I were to fall you'll be there to catch me. Thank you.

Mindy Cheah

2010-02-23T14:49:00.001+08:00

It is finally here!

2010-02-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Tick tock tick tock.. Is it coming?

2010-02-14T18:27:00.003+08:00

一个人过的情人节是开心的，难忘的.... 还记得大家都把我当怪物看.... 一个人在吃午餐时，服务员还对着我说他觉得我好孤独... 其实，我孤独吗？

2010-02-05T00:51:00.001+08:00

Never again.

2010-02-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

2010-01-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

you know what's the hardest when it comes to LDR? the constant insecurity you'll feel every night before you go to bed.. every type of questions will come into your head even when you tried your best to block them out.. my bet, slightly after the beginning of March.. and mark my words, i can never accept a man with a change of heart ever again.. So we'll see..

2010-01-17T12:41:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. why can't you see what i see?

2010-01-05T10:06:00.001+08:00

i want your love, your bad romance

2009-12-31T16:21:00.000+08:00

out and away to celebrate new year's eve

2009-12-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

why am i feeling hungry constantly?

2009-12-10T11:15:00.000+08:00

Better already ;)

2009-12-07T14:57:00.000+08:00

sorry, haven't been updating my blog. and of course, i'm in deep shit.

2009-11-10T21:17:00.007+08:00

www.mystiquecollection.blogspot.com

my cousin's blog.. she always has the passion towards handicrafts.. she even to the extent of signing up various classes.. so i'm gonna support her ;) remember to support her too!

2009-11-05T21:55:00.001+08:00

u made me who i am today

2009-11-04T01:41:00.001+08:00

常常都有太多太多的情绪都不知道怎么表达出来... 你们曾经都有这样的经验吗? 在
想, 人是不是都一定要为爱情心疼? 我自认没有这样的勇气去面对那种我深爱的人
已经不再爱我时的痛.. 所谓缘来,缘去就是这样吧.. 缘分真是可怕.. 缘分让陌生
人认识,相爱,互相关心,心疼,伤心再狠狠地把他们分开.. 仔细想了以后你还会有勇
气去爱吗? 还有勇气把你的心交给他吗? 爱也会有变淡的那一天.. 那一天来临是,
你又有勇气面对吗? 他离开是他若把你的心一起带走那还好..如果在他离开是忘了
帮你的心带走, 请问一个受伤的心是要或是应该怎么继续活下去? 最可怕的是你还
是无条件的爱着那个狠狠地伤了你的心的他.. 同时心中为爱而燃烧的火怎么也扑不
灭.. 其实想找一个会对我真心的说 " I FOUND YOU " 的人真的有那么难吗?

2009-10-24T02:25:00.003+08:00

On 17 Oct 2009, which is my birthday my bro, mom and i went to Restaurant Sek Yuen FINALLY.. we ordered:-

Pei Pa Duck (NICE NICE NICE.. the meat is tender and juicy while the skin is extremely crispy)
Thai style fish (NICE! the taste is good.. as in really good.. and the texture of the fish is good too.. very smooth i'd say)
Steamed shrimps with egg (nice too.. so far and so many places i've tried this dish.. no doubt this restaurant has the best taste)
Tofu with veggies (this is okay only)
Birthday noodle (it tastes like wantan mee.. i don't know if it's supposed to taste like this in KL.. but definitely didn't taste like the Penang Hokkien style birthday noodle)
Longan Jelly Dessert (THUMBS UP!)

if i'd have to give a say whether i'll be going back in future? the answer is defintely a YES! the price is reasonable with not bad service and most importantly, good food!

2009-10-24T02:14:00.007+08:00

On 18 Oct 2009 i went to Kampachi Japanese buffet with my BFFs.. i was considering rakuzen and kampachi.. but many customers rated it around 4.8/5.0.. so it was a sunny day and we had to walk quite a distance.. i'll mainly blog bout the Jap buffet kay? =)

welll.. i can still remember clearly what do they serve/provide..

Fried Tempura (reallly fresh shrimps and very crispy cuz they fried it on the spot)
Grill salted saba/unagi/salmon
Tofu/miso soup (the miso soup is NICE)
appetizers like potato salad and fried onigiri
sashimi and sushi (although there is not much variety on the sushi but no doubt the sashimi is absolutely fresh)
dorayaki (peanut butter/red bean.. kinda nice) and mochi (nice)
sukiyaki beef/chiken (okay i think it's very sweet)
seafood udon/soba/ramen
Fruits (honey dew/dragon fruit/papaya/watermelon- very sweet)
only banana smoothies
Ice cream (vanilla/choc/macha)

i'd rate it 4/5.. reason: i think not much choices.. but no doubt, the food is fresh and the taste is not bad.. if you're about to ask me whether will i revisit them? i doubt that.. next stop, Jogoya Starhill *this is merely my comment*

2009-10-16T15:46:00.000+08:00

i'm getting SO excited and perky already!!!

2009-10-15T16:21:00.002+08:00

was asked to attend my Grade 1 piano exam on march when i only started like september? it's only half yr ler.. and i'm pretty worried right now.. should i or should i not?

2009-10-11T23:58:00.004+08:00

to Miss Liau Mynnlee: 决定跟你绝交因为你很狡猾

we went to the tarot card reading on this saturday.. and the girl said that our Ms. Liau practically is a highway builder a.k.a she's a very straightforward and malicious person.. Thus, i am officially disowning her here.. LOL! BFF la.. we can shop together next time ;)

2009-10-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

I NEARLY KILLED MY DOG.. tht blardy dog of mine ran over to my neighbour's house.. and u knw la.. malays dun like dogs one.. my neighbour's face looked terrible after tht

2009-10-01T20:44:00.001+08:00

i remember i was crying while i dreamt of you.. even so, i didn't want to open my eyes.. i wanted it to continue even i was crying..

2009-09-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

love is a lie afterall.. nobody should give a say bout my moving on-ness.. i'm moving on at a slow rate.. but it has got nothing to do with you, you and you.. no matter how slow i'm moving on, I AM STILL MOVING ON already.. quit that and shut up

2009-09-30T20:36:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired.. just seriously.. i need more rest and i mean MORE rest..

2009-09-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

i just finished reading The Murder of King Tut.. it's quite a nice book.. i won't say that it's very nice but it's pretty good.. i personally dislike the part when they did not give a solid conclusion as per how did King Tut was murdered.. but overall it was okay.. not suitable for those who doesn't like to read about artifacts and history.. if you're one of them then don't bother buying it.. if you're somebody who's curious bout the past then it'd be a good book for you..

seriously, i finally realised what a ball-less/spineless jerk you are.. shame on you.. i'm currently running out of time to put my mask 2 or 3 days already.. maybe 24 hours a day is not sufficient.. i really wanna get my kit ASAP.. then i can start reading.. we did the most random thing today.. don't bother asking.. it's a top secret which i want pour.. and yeah, i dunno why but i'm scared.. silly i know..

2009-09-28T21:19:00.003+08:00

so tired so tired so tired.. my life force is draining away already.. 9mil come to me nowwwww.. i neeedddd youuuu.. ignore me.. m hungry and i'm tired and i'm so damn sick of my blardy lifestyle.. i'm so tired of feeling jealous.. so so so tired of being anxious over every lil thing around me..

2009-09-27T13:53:00.001+08:00

2009-09-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

i'm soooo tired.. but the food was great ;)

2009-09-24T06:08:00.005+08:00

I'm going to malacca in bout 3hrs away.. going to find all of the good food there ;) sorry Muni, couldn't meet you yesterday.. went somewhere else with mom instead.. how good if there's a moutain in KL for me to hike.. just like Penang.. Oh well, nothing to complain about.. sometimes i'd ask myself whether why is this hatred growing in me? when there's love, there's a risk of growing hatred in future.. I'm currently craving for penang food and the spaghetti near muni's house..

2009-09-22T00:19:00.004+08:00

OMFG! my dearest lye.. OMFG of what u just did (adding a girl in fb and...) OMFG! god bless u! m spreading this to the whole word!

2009-09-20T23:38:00.007+08:00

damn this blardy ulcer.. damn this blardy headache.. i hate it most when homo sapiens keep asking me whether what i'm currently doing.. i'll say this once and for all, I AM CURRENTLY PRE-READING MY BOOKS..

2009-09-15T01:03:00.003+08:00

06 - 呂建中 Tank-如果我變成回憶

2009-09-14T23:20:00.004+08:00

nothing much to comment bout my current ''college''.. despite the poor environment, there is no doubt that the lecturers are great.. a voice is whispering in my head ''it's only three years, mindy''.. okay, i can do it.. MUNI remember u vowed to feed me if i ever survived there for 2years.. or i'm definitely gonna sue you.. i just realised that i have been fooling around during the 1 year and 3 months studying A-Level in Sunway College.. although i DID take law.. but i didn't remember a single thing today.. gonna work hard man!

2009-09-13T22:43:00.004+08:00

SERIOUSLY.. I DON'T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND WHY DO PEOPLE FALL IN LOVE SO EASILY.. sighhh.. this is life.. there are many types of people.. and in the journey of life, you'll get to see different types of people.. say, the lazy one, the happy one, the hyper one, the emo one, the hardworking one and so on.. whatever, skip this topic.. i finally made my mom buy me a piano today.. APPLAUSE!! actually i shouldn't be the one taking the credits.. it was because my mom started her first piano class today and she finally decided that we will need a piano in the long-run.. well, for whatever reason it is.. i am happy.. did anyone realised that as you grow older, it is harder for you to be so happy? last time, i'd feel happy if someone just randomly buy me an ice-cream.. now, it's totally different.. am i more complicated than how i was before? and whenever i feel happy.. i'll ask myself whether is it okay to feel so happy? usually bad things will come just when u feel happy..

my course starts tomorrow.. i thought i wanted to rest for half year.. but then, plan changed.. PEOPLE! my holidays ends now.. that's saddening.. LOL! nothing much happened lately.. i went out with MUNI.. Oh ya, and and and OMG! I FINALLY EARN RM0.50 IN NUFFNANG! keep up the good work, PEOPLE!

2009-09-07T15:08:00.008+08:00

Lots of shits happened in a day.. know wht? my dog accidentally broke my mom's feng shui vase this morning after i brought them home from a walk.. it was a pure accident and knowing that my mom had already hold grudges against her, i decided to take responsibility and called my mom saying tht i was the one who broke it.. of course she didn't believe but i did all i can to protect my darlings.. since when did i learn to protect someone/something even knowing that i might be blamed at all costs.. they made me the way i am today.. they are the primary cause of my increased growth.. Thanks.. as i will continue protecting all of you

2009-09-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

Define 'friends'

2009-09-04T16:44:00.002+08:00

As i was happily walking my dog today.. an unwanted sight freaked me out.. guess what? it was a horrible sun shade with Lee Hom's goofy smile in somebody's car.. WHAT THE HELL?!!!! don't get me wrong.. i have nothing against him.. i bet his picture was printed illgally on the sun shade.. cuz it was the ugliest picture i've ever seen.. why not the illegal manufacturers just use some macho-er picture? and worse, the person bought it.. they must have needed the sun shades urgently.. imagine you're lee hom and when you're walking your dog, u saw your i-don't-wanna-mention-it kinda picture on a sun shade in somebody's car.. will you be proud of it? i doubt so..

有感而发 - 爱情篇 (writing how i‘m currently feeling - LOVE)

2009-09-02T18:28:00.010+08:00

在我还没开始之前，其实想说我知道我的华语很烂！可是我还是坚持要用华语

在我已经很清楚的知道我已把他忘了之后，我昨晚竟然梦到他！真是个恶梦！
(after i'm sure that i've forgotten him, i dreamt bout him last night! what a nightmare!)

love
你们相信缘分吗? 以前的我也不是说不信，只是觉得努力和付出后一定会有结果
(Do u believe in fate? It's not that i don't believe in it last time, it's just i used to think that it will work if i try harder and give in more)

love
以前总是相信命运是掌握在人的手里！可是，现在终于知道原来有些事是勉强不来的
(I used to think that we can take charge of everything in our life, but i finally understand that it does not apply to certain things in life)

love
以前的我，对爱很执着。一旦爱上了，就无论如何一定会爱下去
(I used to be very stubborn when it comes to love. Once i fall in love, i'll still love him no matter what happens)

love
我一直以来都相信每一个人都会有一个灵魂伴侣，一个无条件会在你身边守护着你，爱你，疼你，接受你和包容你的一个人。你们相信吗?
( I have always believed that everyone on earth has a soulmate, someone who will be there for you unconditionally, someone who loves you and accept you for who you are. Do you believe it too?)

love

其实当别人我们到底想找个怎样的另一半的时候，我们总是会说得有没完没了的！其实说来说去，重点就是一个真心爱你的人！因为时代的变化爱情变复杂了吗? 不是的，是我们变复杂了！
(When people ask us what do you seek in getting a boyfriend/girlfriend? We usually will have a long list of it. But the whole story is, we all just need someone who truly loves us! Did love turn complicated as time changed? No, we are the one who became complicated!)

love

记得一个朋友问过我，一个人在谈恋爱后会学到什么? 我告诉他我学会了如何去爱一个人！我同时体验到开心，幸福，嫉妒，心痛，寂寞和应该放手的感受。
(I remembered there was once a friend of mine asked me whether what will someone learn after being in a relationship. I told him i learnt how to love someone and i experieced hapiness, jealousy, pain, loneliness and the feeling when i had to let go.)

love
其实，有多少个人会停下来问问自己到底是在那一段感情里学到了什么? 而不是在埋怨着对方的薄情寡意或过错呢? 用这个角度来看，不是更容易放得下吗?
(How many people will actually pause and think whether what did they get from that relationship and not lament or hate the other person for their dishonesty or wrongdoing? Isn't it easier if we look at things from this point of view?)

love
我真不明白，明明是相爱着的却不能在一起。在一起了的呢，却永远也学不会珍惜！难道真的要等失去了才后悔当初没有好好珍惜?
(I really don't seem to understand why does people who loves each other badly cannot get to be together while there are lovers who don't cherish each other. Do we really need to wait until we lose someone special only we'll learn and regret why we didn't cherish that special someone?)

love
人家常说拿得起要放得下。那请问一下又有谁能够这样潇洒啊? 真的掏心出来爱一个人真的能这么容易放得下吗?
(Many said that if u had decided to be in the relationship, then you'll have to be able to let go of it when it is time to say goodbye. How many people can be so cool? if you ever loved someone so much can you let go of it easily?)

love
我觉得是要在你看到对方在没有你的生活里依然过得开心还是比从前开心的时候，你才放得开的！
( I think you'll be able to let go when you see that the person is feeling happy and even happier without you in their life)

love
所以问世间情为何物? 多少人曾经为情烦恼? 爱情来得快，去得快! 所以爱要勇敢说出来！不要为了一点点自尊而把爱收藏在心里。或许那个人也一样的爱着你，如果他不爱你也无所谓！至少你曾经尝试过了！
(What is love? How many have been trapped in love? Love comes too quickly and it ends so soon! So please express your love. Don't hide the love in your heart. Maybe he/she loves you too and if he/she doesn't, it doesn't matter. At least u tried!)

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给我一点时间
我会为你改变
一定会有更好的明天
请你一定要等到那天
MindyC

2009-09-02T09:07:00.002+08:00

Oh ya, don't forget your mask!

2009-09-02T08:52:00.003+08:00

i'm secretly feeling excited.. because.. i'm so free when everyone is busy preparing to go to class/school! i know i sound evil.. but i'm happy! and i'm here to declare that i'm on strict diet.. :D

2009-08-31T12:13:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucking pissed.. SO SO SO fucking pissed..

2009-08-30T08:40:00.001+08:00

i just dun understand.. why is it so hard for me to find a blogskin that i like?!

2009-08-30T07:23:00.006+08:00

Yesterday i went to eat our infamous fish head noodle in Taman Danau Desa.. few days ago, i was thinking of changing my 'housebound' lifestyle and start off another 'new life'.. nah, just kidding.. i cannot hide my passion towards food.. anyway back to the fish head noodle.. as i was browsing the internet for 'Good Food in KL'.. there were many ppl who recommended this dish.. so i took the address and i told my mom tht we will definitely have to eat this dish.. we didnt know the way and all i did was relied on my GPS.. point is, i couldn't find the route and we were already on the way and at somewhere near Leisure Mall.. we still managed to get there using both my phone and my GPS.. the fish head noodle tasted reli good.. from my POV, i think it's better to not eat with the special chilli paste but try eating it with chili padi.. definitely worth trying.. meanwhile, for the following week my next stop will be, Restaurant Sek Yuen, Jalan Pudu.

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2009-08-30T06:48:00.002+08:00

* i'm talking to myself*

I need to thank you for helping me to forget him.. i still don't like flirty guys like you.. Get off my life now you

2009-08-27T06:04:00.002+08:00

Do me a fav, ppl.. click 'nuffnang' on the sidebar everytime u visit my blog.. Thanks!

2009-08-20T04:22:00.002+08:00

i was afraid to admit it.. fearing tht everything tht i held close to keep myself from falling apart will be gone just by admitting this truth to myself.. i think i love u, instead of liking u.. stupid i knw.. i dun need anyone to tell me this..

2009-08-15T01:24:00.001+08:00

i dun seem to be able to express how i feel now in words

2009-08-14T23:26:00.001+08:00

离开你我难过有多少你不会/不想知道

我只好静静的把这份思念和爱恋放在心上

既然你都在过的那么好

我还有什么理由打扰你的生活

只好送上一份最真诚的祝福

你一定要比以前过得更好

2009-07-27T05:51:00.005+08:00

my wishlist (updated version)

2009-07-13T20:25:00.001+08:00

i think they're getting on my nerves.. and btw, mom.. we're suffering TOGETHER.. not only u k.. so if u dun mind, just stop throwing tantrums unreasonably or due to ur own personal discomfort..

2009-07-12T22:36:00.001+08:00

早知道爱我已忘了离开
等你明白我非你不爱
早知道爱我已忘了喜欢

2009-07-09T15:23:00.001+08:00

when am i going to move on?!!!!!

2009-07-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

dun read if u dun like vulgar words.. m a person who seldom use vulgar words.. but m in the mood of doing so right now.. i'm so fucking tired today.. SERIOUSLY.. backache and all.. fuck my maid who ran away.. fuck myself who answered his call and i think the feelings somehow or rather is still there.. i hate to feel this way..

2009-07-06T08:43:00.002+08:00

seriously.. i'm in a fucked-up mood.. some so called good friend of mine is acting so self-centered really.. i think i shud reli reconsider treating a friend as a real and true friend.. wtf is this.. mostly they'd just move on their life and end up forgetting who u are.. how u have always helped them when they needed u.. there's this ''friend'' of mine, M who tried to sell me what claimed to be her friend's product.. and as a friend i supported her.. i bought like Rm100++.. and yesterday i was supposed to go over her place and pay her (which we already made a deal).. and she just sent me a message bout an hr i was supposed to be at her place and told me she was going out.. how irreponsible is tht.. but tht's still all ryte.. wht reli pissed me off is, she told me she might be an official disturbutor for a famous facial wash and thought tht it might be a good way of earning an income.. i only asked her how is she planning to tht and where would she be taking the stock from and she replied me tht she wouldn't tell me (as she thought tht i'd want to be a distributor too).. what the crap is this? if she's reli a true friend of mine, she wouldn't hesitate and acted this way ryte? look, we're friends and i want us to earn an extra income together too.. shudn't things be this way?

fuck

i'm quoting my fren:
fuck

u might have many friends.. but how many friends treat u as a true friend?

2009-06-13T02:42:00.001+08:00

眼泪，可以是一种不必离开的理由
眼泪，也可以是一种负担
因为内疚而离不开的包袱

2009-05-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so depressed seriously.. pls take me away.. perhaps to somewhere i dun have to suffer this way, somewhere without unfair treatment.. bury me and i'll thank u with a wonderful smile..

2009-05-13T21:43:00.002+08:00

i don't know but i'm pretty emo right now.. anonymous said, love is life.. then i never had a life.. the post before this is the result of a personality test.. i think it's pretty true tho.. so sad but true..

2009-05-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and always prepared to help others. However,once you settle down, (which is often late), then your hard lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly- disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take you to success. You area great part of a family team. You are a fighter.

2009-05-08T15:17:00.000+08:00

i'm updating my blog with my psp :]

2009-04-27T20:01:00.002+08:00

my maid is just another bitch.. seriously, she's supposed to reheat the rice for my rottie.. just because my mom bought her rice today.. she didnt even bother to reheat the rice for my dog.. we only found out until the very last min we had to feed my rottie.. and my mom oni reheat the rice by steaming it for 5mins.. it's not even hot yet.. i actually put my hand inside the the tupperware of rice to test it, okayyy.. she's reli getting on my nerves ler.. and i told my mom bout it.. she says its lidat when u have maid unless i wanna do it myself.. wtf ryte? then whts the point of paying her everymonth if I CAN do it myself..

2009-04-20T14:43:00.004+08:00

hullo.. i reli screwed my econs anyway.. ignore that.. anyway, it's just so unbearable to see my new maid pulling and dragging my rottie's neck chain like nobody's business.. wht the heck ryte? i shouted at her instantly.. i reli kenot deal with ppl tht treat my dogs like something worser than dogs..

Big boss, Richie ( i know his size is too small to be a big boss)

2nd boss, Rocky

i've got 2 reli adorable dogs.. getting another German Shepherd.. will come home with me on 9 May.. it's funny to see how they communicate and play with each other.. Richie will bark furiously at Rocky whenever he starts playing rough with me.. how cute ar they.. hope my female GSD will interact well with these 2 fellas

2009-04-06T05:46:00.001+08:00

4 more hours to my economics mock exam.. 6 more hours to my psychology mock exam.. screw my econs exam.. like i care =S

2009-04-03T04:37:00.004+08:00

hellooo.. i'm back.. my mock exam is just next week (mon&tues).. and i haven touched a single thing yet.. i dunno.. i'm planning to ignore my mocks.. it's only a mock anyway.. since it's not counted.. so there is no point for me to work so hard on it rytee.. recently, i'm just so addicted to Facebook.. it was like how i used to be when i first started to be a member of Friendster.. just read through my fren's blog just now.. and it reminded me of him.. just how long have i not think of him already? i dunno, no sad feelings or anything.. sometimes ppl say time heal all wounds.. is tht so? could it be tht, we just get used to the pain we used to feel?

seriously, things are pretty hectic now.. i'm so stressed up till i couldnt stop myself from eating.. i RAN away.. when i tried thinking back bout wht just happened within this month, the nez thing i know is i'm ripping off another packet of cookies.. things are getting outta control.. perhaps this is the best way since they didnt feel happy together anymore?

2009-03-16T17:57:00.004+08:00

i'm super free to be able to update my blog twice a day.. it is raining heavily in my housing area.. i guess it is raining in most housing areas.. i love rainy days especially when i'm at home.. i hate it so much when i have parked my car so far and i usually do not bring my umbrella with me.. it sucks even more when my frens cant fetch me over to the monach U parking.. i'm not here to lament bout the rain.. been thinking bout going for a holiday trip with my fellow friends after my A2 exam ends on june.. planning to go to p.redang.. i dunno, i think it's the diving part tht captivates me.. i was telling my mom tht i reli had to go scuba diving and bungee jump for AT LEAST once in my life.. i really wanna feel the rush.. andrenalin rushing through veins? i'm quoting britney's lyrics..today i'll try to be the good mama's girl.. wanna convince my mom to upgrade my RAM.. i left only like 111MB in local C.. wtf rytee? my comp is so super laggy noww.. i've been wanting to change my phone since centuries ago.. but my phone is in pretty good condition.. can't find a good reason to ask my mom to change for me ryte.. mayb i shud just say tht i'm bored of my phone..

yawnnnn

my parents are currently in the cold war for 2weeks.. i'm pretty safe this time.. i don't need to take sides anymore.. silence is gold.. seriously, they'd only argue less when they don't talk.. sometimes seeing married couples around me, it kills my desire to get married like other girls.. half of the married couples actually seek divorce as the last remedy.. wht bout the other half? are they holding on and they're happy? i dunnnoooo.. i'm in p.tioman tml, btw.. supposedly shud go for scuba diving.. but it think tml will just be another rainy day.. hope the weather will be good tml.. will update soon ;)

2009-03-16T15:51:00.003+08:00

life's good... relii.. i did this personality test since i saw it in JT's blog.. its' pretty cool i think.. give it a try if u have spare time kayy

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test102.aspx

What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are kind and friendly. You are an uncomplicated person and enjoy exciting activities.

What others see from your belts

If there's not a single belt in your wardrobe, you like freedom and are opposed to all kinds of rules. You are creative and very good at work that requires you to stretch your imagination. Your main downfall, however, is that you can be very moody.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

2009-03-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

sorry, i was reli bored.

2009-03-12T22:43:00.002+08:00

weeeeeeee! i'm feeling perky today.. he sms-ed me few days ago.. and from tht very moment i knew tht i'm totally all ryte & i'm totally over itt! i tot i'd feel so bad and cry myself to bed again.. but i was surprised by the outcome of the message.. i only treat him like a normal fren and i even managed to end the conversation and not cling on him.. i've got to celebrateeee!

2009-02-26T16:58:00.004+08:00

sad but yeah, i gotta admit it.. i've been thinking bout u these 2days.. i knowww.. so pathetic.. wtf ryte? i dun understand it too.. i thought i'm completely all ryte but here it goes again.. shitttyyy.. this reli idiot song made me feel so emo ryte now.. especially the MV of this song.. not to say it's idiotic in the bad way.. it influences ppl to feel sad too..

方炯镔 - 坏人

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UC1hDJs_xhI

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以後就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

it was the girl who fall in love with another guy,and her current boyfriend know that she was in love with another guy,the girl felt that she's very cruel if she break up with her current boyfriend,but her current boyfriend want her to be happy,so he decided to break up with her girlfriend in a cruel way,so that her girlfriend will be able to leave him behind and start a new relationship with another guy.

2009-02-20T23:17:00.001+08:00

now i know why some called me and sounded so worried.. i wanted to type ''i'm definitely not suicidal'' but i typed it wrongly.. i just wanna update to show ppl who still cares for me tht m still alivee

2009-02-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

i dunno wht makes me started writing this post.. i've got nothing to share today.. i'm just so overwhelmed.. today is valentine's eve.. m happy for my frens who are happy as well.. sometimes i feel pathetic for myself when i see those happy couples smiling at each other and go lovey dovey.. i think thts perfectly normal ryte.. i mean like, who do i need to mourn bout the relationship tht was already 'certified' sooo long ago? i can't stop to be mad at myself.. how much time on earth do i need to get over this whole damn thing? how much time do i need to suffer in order to move on? recently things happened and i just couldnt stop myself from wondering whther what is the meaning of my life.. do i do things cuz i reli want to or am i doing it just to get an approving smile or a single nod from people i love? do i wanna do things successfully cuz i duwan to disappoint ppl tht held high hopes on me or am i succeed cuz i reli want to taste and have the smile of victory? dun worry, i'm definitely now suicidal..

a million words will not bring u back,
cuz i tried,
a million tears will not bring u back,
cuz i cried.

tomorrow will be another day i guess.. i think this emotional feeling comes in pattern.. firstly u will feel sad, then u start to accept the fact tht the whole relationship is gone, u'll begin to feel better at least not to cry urself to bed anymore, u can move on ur day with a smile, then u'll miss tht person and feel sad again.. it goes in a cycle.. single people get to celebrate their valentine's day as welll.. at least i shud try my best to enjoy my valentine's day tml..

2009-02-09T19:53:00.002+08:00

i have been missing those days when i could just lie on the bed and think of nothing.. life goes on; thts wht ppl around me have been saying all these time.. hypocrites.. u can say tht but u cant even practice it urself.. i've been slacking all these while.. TV, series, songs, psp-ing, emo-ing, sleeping, daydreaming.. it's time to stand up again.. it's time to show u wht i'm capable of doing without u around.. i'm not going to UK.. going to Australia instead.. more cousins and frens are there.. at least my mom is not so paranoid and worried if thts where i'll be going.. i'm so sorry my dear blog, i had left u neglected here.. i think fate is an amusing thing tht keeps ur head spinning around.. cheers!

Abalone feast

2009-01-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

will be cooking abalone later. will update soon.. HAPPY CNY!

2009-01-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

my homemade chilli crab was a great success.. wahaha! another great move to open my own restaurant someday.. and another good news is, i am completely all right now.. reli wanna thank those ppl have always been there for me when i needed somebody and those who made me feel loved.. love u guys!

2009-01-04T21:34:00.001+08:00

i'm still surviving! new year, new start.. starting to flush shits in life away

2008-12-21T07:07:00.002+08:00

i'm awake.. life's short.. recently i keep thinking bout how long will i still be able to sit here and update my blog.. how long will i still be able to see my family and all the ppl tht i love... or mayb once loved with all my heart as welll.. its scary to see tht how short our human lifespan is.. life's fragile.. it could be taken away from us by just a minor accident.. in everything tht i do recently, i'd ask myself whther how long i'd be able to do tht summo.. like for instance, when i play with my dog.. i nvr failed to ask myself this question again.. i wanted to write a letter to my family to tell them how much i love them.. as i nvr had the courage to tell them.. mayb i got influenced my books tht i've read.. watched this series the other day, Gem Of Life, i like the part where this stubborn old lady tht have always been trying to control her daughter's love life nearly got into an accident.. and she was also suspected to have cancer and the doctor told her tht these can also be seen as a warning tht god had gave to her.. she shud start appreciating her life instead.. a warning, yes.. i got involved in a car accident and some stupid malays robbed me and came back for me.. is this a warning too? i dunno.. but i'm reli trying to enjoy everything tht i'm doing now.. trying to do things without holding back nor thinking bout the consequences of doing so.. sometimes i think it's not good to worry so much.. just let things go naturally without interfering it.. let it be

2008-12-20T12:37:00.003+08:00

christmas is coming soon! i'm rotting at home already.. too tired to go out.. save energy and wait till my cousin comes and visit me from Penang.. woohoo.. new year is coming soon too.. as if it happens by just a blink.. thinking back how this whole year is to me.. nothing is special again.. except i met him this year.. and yeah, i still think of him.. often.. things started when my course (a level) started in Sunway College.. nez year is going to be my last semester in Sunway College.. then i'll be going to UK soon.. i might delay another year.. seriously not sure yet.. but however it is, i'll still be going to UK.. i already made up my mind.. how good if i'm like most of my frens.. who had their bf to go together with them to UK or Australia to further their studies there.. i'm not afraid of being lonely.. i just want someone i can share everything with.. someone that i can reli trust.. someone tht will be there with me when i'm down.. someone tht can make me tht special someone too.. it's going to be an emotional post if i continue.. so i better stop right here.. i think i shud stop things before it's too late.. before it becomes something tht everyone do not want to even mention about it.. i know i am pathetic.. but illusions nvr turned into something real.. sad, but it's true..

2008-12-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

STUPID STUPID STUPID line.. i typed everything and i happily clicked 'post'.. but the blardy line failed everything.. all ryte.. i bought lots of things from my wishlist.. and i ate alot yesterday.. cuz i went shopping with my mom in One U.. and i realised tht i spend money like itwist on the tap water.. ahhhh.. i shud change tht i think.. i've burned a big hole in my mom's LV wallet.. like always.. and this funny thing happened.. we bought tickets from TGV.. we watch movies every weekends and this is how we bond.. then.. we went to GSC cinema insead.. the staff was like ''urhh.. sorry, this is TGV ticket'' thts so embarrassing! but everything is falling into its place slowly noww

2008-12-13T04:33:00.003+08:00

something strange happened.. when i tot i was going to gain weight.. i didnt.. but i lose weight instead.. thts weird.. while i was standing on the scale.. closing my eyes tightly.. and i tried to peep through.. i saw the figures.. and i was dumfounded.. thts so incredible.. nothing is wrong my specs okayy

2008-12-13T03:26:00.003+08:00

Santa, this is my long wishlist:-

Stuffs from The Body Shop (will get it soon)
Levi's Jeans (skinny leg with light colour)
Denim skirt (at least 2 with light colours)
Sandals (it has to be in RED - few pairs will do)
One pumps/wedge (it has to be in RED as well)
Red colour Fossil wallet (will get it soon)
Roxy bag that catches my eye
Mont Blanc pen (wanted it since so long ago)
Quicksilver/Roxy pencil case
Statement Ts (a few will do- anybody know where to get it?)

*anyone wants to buy me christmas present? LOL.. most welcomed

2008-12-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

i feel like vomiting.. its always like tht.. after meal.. quite some time already.. but i swear, i didnt puke everything out.. didnt even try to make myself vomit.. i duwan to get bulimia.. its stupid.. and pathetic.. not criticising bulimia-infected ppl.. but i just DON'T WANT to have bulimia.. the feeling is.. grosss? can't find the exact word.. it's disgusting.. something is reli wrong with me.. i have been sleeping alot recently.. bought Starbucks 2009 planner.. made from genuine leather.. its nice, smells nice, looks nice.. tot i wanna get a nice planner from KLCC.. save it for nez nez year.. tot of getting a starbucks mug.. i dunno why.. so tempted to go shopping.. mega sales everywhere.. i sleep early everyday.. like 6am in the morning.. life is terribly screwed up.. gonna correct it.. weeks away from Christmas.. haven started the preparation for bbq party.. not even sure bout the guest list.. dun bother bout my screwed up life.. have been reading alot of novels.. My best fren's girl from Dorothy Koomson is nice.. Remember me from sophie kinsella is nice as well.. haven started reading the Host from stephanie meyer.. gonna get The Gift real soon.. gonna get myself a new wallet, a pair of jeans, denim skirt, iPhone/iPod Touch (most probably iPhone), lots of statement T(s), mask, T-shirts, nice clothes for nez year, a pair of nice and classy heels (at least one), and a pair of nice shoe.. m impressed by my own desires.. thts definitely a long wish list..

2008-12-07T19:00:00.003+08:00

i think i'm dream walking now.. i feel so dizzy.. i'm trying not to sleep on inappropriate hours.. as in the time when u're not supposed to sleep lerhh.. my life is so shit-ty screwed up.. its upside down now! when ppl are supposed to be sleeping, i'm watching tv dramas, listening to songs and shouting the lyrics aloud.. i'm mad.. how can i recover from severe madness? went out again today.. watched Transporter 3.. u ppl shud reli watch it.. the guy is so damn hot! with his sexy six-packs.. and the girl looks not bad ler.. well, at least she's reli tall and slim.. i think i will be dreaming bout the guy tonight.. he's just so hot.. gonna appear offline the whole time.. m reli not in the right mood to chat.. to crap some jokes with u all.. one thing for sure, it's gone

2008-12-06T12:12:00.004+08:00

周公, when can i date u properly.. u did not appear last night and i'm craving for u right now! MERRY CHRISTMAS! *ignore me, m insane, i need sleep*

2008-12-05T23:05:00.003+08:00

it's going to be a long-winded post again.. i've got nothing much to share with u ppl who are readin my blog here.. life is full of craps.. been staying at home all these while.. too lazy to move my sexy ass out of my house.. except for laz week when i finally made up my mind to get out from home and go shopping with mom.. but we ended up watching 2 movies in a day.. we watched Quarantine and Twilight instead.. nothing to shout about, i fell in love with edward cullen.. like everybody else.. besides that, i think dr cullen is handsome.. Quarantine is okayyy.. the camera is so shaky till i nearly fainted in the cinema.. i think the most digusting part is the last part when there's an ambiguous half human half ET figure eating the guy's corpse.. i think that part is disgusting.. and anyway.. i think the ending sucks.. while we were watching Quarantine.. my mom told me tht there were this malay couple making out beside her.. come on guys, stop doing this in the public.. go back to ur room, lock it, and roll on the bed together.. be considerate alll right!

only timeeeee

i think i'm enjoying myself staying at home tho.. spending 2/4 of my time sleeping.. another half toking craps and laughing idiotically with my mom at our lame and lousy jokes.. i think 'this whole thing' gave me another part of life tht i have nvr seen before.. while i was sulking bout how heartbroken i am, i am beginning to explore many other things in life.. honestly.. not to be sarcastic.. i reli need to thank him no matter if we're going to be together or not in future.. no matter wht the ending is going to be.. he made me understand alot of other things in my life.. not just love..

onlyyy timeee

as in, i'm beginning to realise tht ppl at this age shouldn't have a bf (shudnt doesnt mean will not).. we shud enjoy life instead.. youth is something tht will only be given to us once in a lifetime.. once it is gone, u will nvr get a second chance no matter how u cry over it.. besides tht, the person tht i wanna be with shudn't be someone as simple as this.. i want someone who's good at everything (positively), someone who appreciates me and loves me dearly.. i just dun understand wht is the point for me to suffer so much while he doesnt even bother to care bout how i feel..

only timeeee

like wht my fren, jyy wei told me.. there's no nid to rush things.. it's completely all right for me to miss him and think of him eventho it has been 2 months already and i'm still here feelin heartbroken.. i'm still a human afterall.. i'll treat him as a fren from now on.. continue talking on the phone, continue to reply his msgs in msn and so on.. i shall not isolate myself anymore.. i think i will continue doing these till its time for me to go to UK.. everything shud be all right then..

only timeeee

time heals everything i guess.. and i will recover sooner or later.. i'm reli feeling very very much better now.. after thinking so much about it.. dun be surprised if u see me sulk in my blog bout him again.. time changes everything.. give me some confidence, ppl.. and to my frens who loves and cares for me.. i love u too! i feel loved by ppl who were so worried bout me when they read bout my blog.. do not worry.. i'll try my best to go through all these and i know tht i'm not alone.. i am still surviving, u c... i dunno why, but seriously, i'm more positive-minded now.. i dunno who or what influenced me.. but it must be encouragements and laughters by ppl around me.. i have a big dream to pursue.. i want to share my joy and laughters with ppl around me.. it feels so good to see ppl around me smiling happily..

2008-12-05T01:16:00.007+08:00

http://www.imeem.com/kaye0207/music/R65qaDvx/enya_only_time_original_album_version/

only time

Enya - Only time

only time

Who can say where the road goes,

Where the day flows, only time?

And who can say if your love grows,

As your heart chose,

only time?

Who can say why your heart sighs,

As your live flies, only time?

And who can say why your heart cries when your love lies,

only time?

Who can say when the roads meet,

That love might be ,in your heart?

and who can say when the day sleeps,

and the night keeps all your heart?

Night keeps all your heart.....

Who can say if your love groves,

As your heart chose, only time?

And who can say where the road goes

Where the day flows, only time?

Who knows?

Only time

Who knows?

Only time

2008-11-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

i won't be updating my blog so soon.. cuz i just dun wanna tok bout wht had happened yesterday.. those ppl shud be damned and accept the karma for robbing me and the trauma tht they had caused to me... i just simply couldnt express my hatred towards these 2 malay robbers.. i think government shud reli do something to these malay families tht didnt bother to bother bout their child.. if their parents were strict enough towards them, do u think they would even have the chance to linger around with their bikes on the road at 5.45am? i think partly its their fault.. and we couldn't blame the fact tht they're just filthy poor and they damn it-ly nid some money to use thus they had to rob.. it could also be tht they did all these crime for fun.. who to blame? obviously our funny police are not as functional as wht we thought they are.. i lodged a police report and all they told me was to wait for another police station to call me.. and YET until now, i haven't received any call from them.. how inefficient they are ryte? i'm enough of it.. i keep feeling tired eventho i had enough sleep.. dun nid to worry m all ryte aside from those minor injuries and its more on the shock.. i can still feel myself shivering as i tok bout it..

2008-11-21T17:16:00.003+08:00

basically i think my family is mad.. we're having BBQ tonight and its only for the 4 of us.. how pathetic is tht.. actually the reason we're having this BBQ thing tonight is because we plan to try the taste of the marination.. see if the taste is good or not.. cuz if it's not at least we'll still have time to change the recipe before the Xmas eve BBQ party ryte.. at least its doing something good to me.. it took up most of my time and i dun have extra time to think bout him.. and community service is tml.. arrrghhhh

2008-11-20T18:47:00.003+08:00

i'm being a bitch again today.. i took the initiative to sms him today cuz i thought things might change abit if i tolerate.. but i guess, things aren't changing.. i think its just reli the time for me to realize tht its gone.. i dunno... but its so unbearable to know the fact tht he simply doesnt care? m so sorry for those who reli thought tht i am moving on.. i reli didnt meant to disappoint u ppl.. its just so pathetic to know tht i'm still here,where i was when i've been struggling so hard to let go.. m so sorry

2008-11-19T16:32:00.005+08:00

TWILIGHT

TWILIGHT
TWILIGHT

TWILIGHT

2008-11-16T17:09:00.004+08:00

i'm still choosing between UCL or Manchester U

OPINION NEEDED

Famous UCL

Manchester U

2008-11-16T16:23:00.006+08:00

ohmigod.. m feeling so great today.. sumtimes i reli dun understand myself.. i think its the frequent mood swing again.. but wtv, i wanna thank this period thing.. finally its doing something great on me.. aside from the backaches, stomachaches, etc etc..

weeeeeee

exam ended and i got back my life again.. but sad thing is, wednesday i'll be having a Psycho test on A2 syllabus.. i need a break, man! other colleges are happily enjoying their holidays.. its just so unfair.. and we're going for a community service on nez sat.. we have to reach college at 6.30am.. i think the organizer is mad.. come on, ppl living in cheras have to wake up like 5am? just for the sake of the community service.. but still its good to help ppl ryte?

weeeeee

little touch up bout my exams.. Law is good.. Econs is good as well.. i'm just worried bout my Psycho.. i know i can get a B.. but point is, i want an A for Psycho.. its all ryte.. let the result speak for itself..

weeeee

last nite i finally managed to clarify myself.. but before i talk bout how i feel bout it.. we haven been talking on the phone for like 2 weeks or so.. and i managed to survive, people! i deserve a loud applause.. and point is, i'm trying to be happy.. but deep down me i know there's this one thing tht's reli making me feeling unhappy.. how ironic is tht, huh.. he's still living in my heart i think.. and the feelings is still there.. haven went away.. i think all i nid is time.. gotta give some time to time =) and back to last night.. i was sad.. and i admit tht kayy.. i dunno.. but i'm feeling better today.. knowing tht there'll be no turning point.. and knowing tht there wont be anymore hopes for me to continue hoping for.. its a great release.. but i know i'll feel sad for a period of time.. time heals i think.. so guys, need not to worry bout urs truly.. m recovering more and more..

weeeeee

gonna save to shop during the year end.. and oh ya, ppl who are reading my blog.. i'll have a BBQ party at my house during Christmas Eve.. feel free to come over.. presence will be appreciated.. and my dear ex-classmates.. just in case if u dun know.. we'll be having a MCA gathering during 29nov.. not sure where izit yet.. but make sure u attend.. attendance is compulsory. Nyek nyek nyek

weeeeee

P/S: i feel loved (by dunno wht)

2008-11-15T19:14:00.001+08:00

Exam's OVERRR!

jackie update ur blog!

2008-11-03T12:56:00.002+08:00

Question: how should u know if u still love someone or not?

i shouldn't mess up my feelings again.. once decided, stick to it and that's it..