Friday, December 5, 2008 @ 11:05 PM
it's going to be a long-winded post again.. i've got nothing much to share with u ppl who are readin my blog here.. life is full of craps.. been staying at home all these while.. too lazy to move my sexy ass out of my house.. except for laz week when i finally made up my mind to get out from home and go shopping with mom.. but we ended up watching 2 movies in a day.. we watched Quarantine and Twilight instead.. nothing to shout about, i fell in love with edward cullen.. like everybody else.. besides that, i think dr cullen is handsome.. Quarantine is okayyy.. the camera is so shaky till i nearly fainted in the cinema.. i think the most digusting part is the last part when there's an ambiguous half human half ET figure eating the guy's corpse.. i think that part is disgusting.. and anyway.. i think the ending sucks.. while we were watching Quarantine.. my mom told me tht there were this malay couple making out beside her.. come on guys, stop doing this in the public.. go back to ur room, lock it, and roll on the bed together.. be considerate alll right! only timeeeeei think i'm enjoying myself staying at home tho.. spending 2/4 of my time sleeping.. another half toking craps and laughing idiotically with my mom at our lame and lousy jokes.. i think 'this whole thing' gave me another part of life tht i have nvr seen before.. while i was sulking bout how heartbroken i am, i am beginning to explore many other things in life.. honestly.. not to be sarcastic.. i reli need to thank him no matter if we're going to be together or not in future.. no matter wht the ending is going to be.. he made me understand alot of other things in my life.. not just love.. onlyyy timeeeas in, i'm beginning to realise tht ppl at this age shouldn't have a bf (shudnt doesnt mean will not).. we shud enjoy life instead.. youth is something tht will only be given to us once in a lifetime.. once it is gone, u will nvr get a second chance no matter how u cry over it.. besides tht, the person tht i wanna be with shudn't be someone as simple as this.. i want someone who's good at everything (positively), someone who appreciates me and loves me dearly.. i just dun understand wht is the point for me to suffer so much while he doesnt even bother to care bout how i feel.. only timeeeelike wht my fren, jyy wei told me.. there's no nid to rush things.. it's completely all right for me to miss him and think of him eventho it has been 2 months already and i'm still here feelin heartbroken.. i'm still a human afterall.. i'll treat him as a fren from now on.. continue talking on the phone, continue to reply his msgs in msn and so on.. i shall not isolate myself anymore.. i think i will continue doing these till its time for me to go to UK.. everything shud be all right then.. only timeeeetime heals everything i guess.. and i will recover sooner or later.. i'm reli feeling very very much better now.. after thinking so much about it.. dun be surprised if u see me sulk in my blog bout him again.. time changes everything.. give me some confidence, ppl.. and to my frens who loves and cares for me.. i love u too! i feel loved by ppl who were so worried bout me when they read bout my blog.. do not worry.. i'll try my best to go through all these and i know tht i'm not alone.. i am still surviving, u c... i dunno why, but seriously, i'm more positive-minded now.. i dunno who or what influenced me.. but it must be encouragements and laughters by ppl around me.. i have a big dream to pursue.. i want to share my joy and laughters with ppl around me.. it feels so good to see ppl around me smiling happily..
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