Sunday, December 21, 2008 @ 7:07 AM
i'm awake.. life's short.. recently i keep thinking bout how long will i still be able to sit here and update my blog.. how long will i still be able to see my family and all the ppl tht i love... or mayb once loved with all my heart as welll.. its scary to see tht how short our human lifespan is.. life's fragile.. it could be taken away from us by just a minor accident.. in everything tht i do recently, i'd ask myself whther how long i'd be able to do tht summo.. like for instance, when i play with my dog.. i nvr failed to ask myself this question again.. i wanted to write a letter to my family to tell them how much i love them.. as i nvr had the courage to tell them.. mayb i got influenced my books tht i've read.. watched this series the other day, Gem Of Life, i like the part where this stubborn old lady tht have always been trying to control her daughter's love life nearly got into an accident.. and she was also suspected to have cancer and the doctor told her tht these can also be seen as a warning tht god had gave to her.. she shud start appreciating her life instead.. a warning, yes.. i got involved in a car accident and some stupid malays robbed me and came back for me.. is this a warning too? i dunno.. but i'm reli trying to enjoy everything tht i'm doing now.. trying to do things without holding back nor thinking bout the consequences of doing so.. sometimes i think it's not good to worry so much.. just let things go naturally without interfering it.. let it be
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Saturday, December 20, 2008 @ 12:37 PM
christmas is coming soon! i'm rotting at home already.. too tired to go out.. save energy and wait till my cousin comes and visit me from Penang.. woohoo.. new year is coming soon too.. as if it happens by just a blink.. thinking back how this whole year is to me.. nothing is special again.. except i met him this year.. and yeah, i still think of him.. often.. things started when my course (a level) started in Sunway College.. nez year is going to be my last semester in Sunway College.. then i'll be going to UK soon.. i might delay another year.. seriously not sure yet.. but however it is, i'll still be going to UK.. i already made up my mind.. how good if i'm like most of my frens.. who had their bf to go together with them to UK or Australia to further their studies there.. i'm not afraid of being lonely.. i just want someone i can share everything with.. someone that i can reli trust.. someone tht will be there with me when i'm down.. someone tht can make me tht special someone too.. it's going to be an emotional post if i continue.. so i better stop right here.. i think i shud stop things before it's too late.. before it becomes something tht everyone do not want to even mention about it.. i know i am pathetic.. but illusions nvr turned into something real.. sad, but it's true..
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008 @ 12:12 AM
STUPID STUPID STUPID line.. i typed everything and i happily clicked 'post'.. but the blardy line failed everything.. all ryte.. i bought lots of things from my wishlist.. and i ate alot yesterday.. cuz i went shopping with my mom in One U.. and i realised tht i spend money like itwist on the tap water.. ahhhh.. i shud change tht i think.. i've burned a big hole in my mom's LV wallet.. like always.. and this funny thing happened.. we bought tickets from TGV.. we watch movies every weekends and this is how we bond.. then.. we went to GSC cinema insead.. the staff was like ''urhh.. sorry, this is TGV ticket'' thts so embarrassing! but everything is falling into its place slowly noww
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Saturday, December 13, 2008 @ 4:33 AM
something strange happened.. when i tot i was going to gain weight.. i didnt.. but i lose weight instead.. thts weird.. while i was standing on the scale.. closing my eyes tightly.. and i tried to peep through.. i saw the figures.. and i was dumfounded.. thts so incredible.. nothing is wrong my specs okayy
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3:26 AM
Santa, this is my long wishlist:-- Stuffs from The Body Shop (will get it soon)
- Levi's Jeans (skinny leg with light colour)
- Denim skirt (at least 2 with light colours)
- Sandals (it has to be in RED - few pairs will do)
- One pumps/wedge (it has to be in RED as well)
- Red colour Fossil wallet (will get it soon)
- Roxy bag that catches my eye
- Mont Blanc pen (wanted it since so long ago)
- Quicksilver/Roxy pencil case
- Statement Ts (a few will do- anybody know where to get it?)
*anyone wants to buy me christmas present? LOL.. most welcomed
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Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 12:45 AM
i feel like vomiting.. its always like tht.. after meal.. quite some time already.. but i swear, i didnt puke everything out.. didnt even try to make myself vomit.. i duwan to get bulimia.. its stupid.. and pathetic.. not criticising bulimia-infected ppl.. but i just DON'T WANT to have bulimia.. the feeling is.. grosss? can't find the exact word.. it's disgusting.. something is reli wrong with me.. i have been sleeping alot recently.. bought Starbucks 2009 planner.. made from genuine leather.. its nice, smells nice, looks nice.. tot i wanna get a nice planner from KLCC.. save it for nez nez year.. tot of getting a starbucks mug.. i dunno why.. so tempted to go shopping.. mega sales everywhere.. i sleep early everyday.. like 6am in the morning.. life is terribly screwed up.. gonna correct it.. weeks away from Christmas.. haven started the preparation for bbq party.. not even sure bout the guest list.. dun bother bout my screwed up life.. have been reading alot of novels.. My best fren's girl from Dorothy Koomson is nice.. Remember me from sophie kinsella is nice as well.. haven started reading the Host from stephanie meyer.. gonna get The Gift real soon.. gonna get myself a new wallet, a pair of jeans, denim skirt, iPhone/iPod Touch (most probably iPhone), lots of statement T(s), mask, T-shirts, nice clothes for nez year, a pair of nice and classy heels (at least one), and a pair of nice shoe.. m impressed by my own desires.. thts definitely a long wish list..
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Sunday, December 7, 2008 @ 7:00 PM
i think i'm dream walking now.. i feel so dizzy.. i'm trying not to sleep on inappropriate hours.. as in the time when u're not supposed to sleep lerhh.. my life is so shit-ty screwed up.. its upside down now! when ppl are supposed to be sleeping, i'm watching tv dramas, listening to songs and shouting the lyrics aloud.. i'm mad.. how can i recover from severe madness? went out again today.. watched Transporter 3.. u ppl shud reli watch it.. the guy is so damn hot! with his sexy six-packs.. and the girl looks not bad ler.. well, at least she's reli tall and slim.. i think i will be dreaming bout the guy tonight.. he's just so hot.. gonna appear offline the whole time.. m reli not in the right mood to chat.. to crap some jokes with u all.. one thing for sure, it's gone
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Saturday, December 6, 2008 @ 12:12 PM
周公, when can i date u properly.. u did not appear last night and i'm craving for u right now! MERRY CHRISTMAS! *ignore me, m insane, i need sleep*
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Friday, December 5, 2008 @ 11:05 PM
it's going to be a long-winded post again.. i've got nothing much to share with u ppl who are readin my blog here.. life is full of craps.. been staying at home all these while.. too lazy to move my sexy ass out of my house.. except for laz week when i finally made up my mind to get out from home and go shopping with mom.. but we ended up watching 2 movies in a day.. we watched Quarantine and Twilight instead.. nothing to shout about, i fell in love with edward cullen.. like everybody else.. besides that, i think dr cullen is handsome.. Quarantine is okayyy.. the camera is so shaky till i nearly fainted in the cinema.. i think the most digusting part is the last part when there's an ambiguous half human half ET figure eating the guy's corpse.. i think that part is disgusting.. and anyway.. i think the ending sucks.. while we were watching Quarantine.. my mom told me tht there were this malay couple making out beside her.. come on guys, stop doing this in the public.. go back to ur room, lock it, and roll on the bed together.. be considerate alll right! only timeeeeei think i'm enjoying myself staying at home tho.. spending 2/4 of my time sleeping.. another half toking craps and laughing idiotically with my mom at our lame and lousy jokes.. i think 'this whole thing' gave me another part of life tht i have nvr seen before.. while i was sulking bout how heartbroken i am, i am beginning to explore many other things in life.. honestly.. not to be sarcastic.. i reli need to thank him no matter if we're going to be together or not in future.. no matter wht the ending is going to be.. he made me understand alot of other things in my life.. not just love.. onlyyy timeeeas in, i'm beginning to realise tht ppl at this age shouldn't have a bf (shudnt doesnt mean will not).. we shud enjoy life instead.. youth is something tht will only be given to us once in a lifetime.. once it is gone, u will nvr get a second chance no matter how u cry over it.. besides tht, the person tht i wanna be with shudn't be someone as simple as this.. i want someone who's good at everything (positively), someone who appreciates me and loves me dearly.. i just dun understand wht is the point for me to suffer so much while he doesnt even bother to care bout how i feel.. only timeeeelike wht my fren, jyy wei told me.. there's no nid to rush things.. it's completely all right for me to miss him and think of him eventho it has been 2 months already and i'm still here feelin heartbroken.. i'm still a human afterall.. i'll treat him as a fren from now on.. continue talking on the phone, continue to reply his msgs in msn and so on.. i shall not isolate myself anymore.. i think i will continue doing these till its time for me to go to UK.. everything shud be all right then.. only timeeeetime heals everything i guess.. and i will recover sooner or later.. i'm reli feeling very very much better now.. after thinking so much about it.. dun be surprised if u see me sulk in my blog bout him again.. time changes everything.. give me some confidence, ppl.. and to my frens who loves and cares for me.. i love u too! i feel loved by ppl who were so worried bout me when they read bout my blog.. do not worry.. i'll try my best to go through all these and i know tht i'm not alone.. i am still surviving, u c... i dunno why, but seriously, i'm more positive-minded now.. i dunno who or what influenced me.. but it must be encouragements and laughters by ppl around me.. i have a big dream to pursue.. i want to share my joy and laughters with ppl around me.. it feels so good to see ppl around me smiling happily..
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1:16 AM
only time
Enya - Only time
only time
Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose,
only time?
Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your live flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries when your love lies,
only time?
Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....
Who can say if your love groves,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?
Who knows?
Only time
Who knows?
Only time
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