Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 10:06 PM
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Monday, September 22, 2008 @ 10:03 PM
U know wht? life's back.. pathetic life is over.. my aunt went back to jb already.. however it is.. i found out tht they were not as bad as how they used to be anymore.. or mayb its because we dun stay together anymore.. so i cant reli see how they are anymore.. their true colours.. their true faces which is hidden behind a colorful mask.. is this the case? or was it my own perception?couldnt be botheredhow do i feel exactly when i am typing here saying tht pathetic life is over? how pathetic is my pathetic life? obviously i know tht i can NEVER EVER compare my so called pathetic life with those reli unfortunate ones.. i feel lucky for myself by just thinking of tht.. the point is, i screwed up my previous mock exam.. i screwed up my psycho (previously second highest in the whole january-march intake).. i screwed up my Econs (which is understanable.. i didn't bother to revise a single piece of material tht was given).. the only thing i did well was Law.. but god knows how much i get.. cuz i have not taken back the paper yet..couldn't be botheredwho should i blame for all these exam 'misfortunes'? obviously i am the one to blame.. but again.. there's no point crying over spilled milk.. i might.. nooo.. i could have screwed up my mock exam.. but i swear.. i will never want to screw up my AS exam as well.. i think i am being emotional again.. GAHH.. this is wht PMS does..couldn't be botheredi reli need to get a life back.. i think this is a part of growing up.. giving more attention into things tht u know it wont work.. leaving out more important things.. and u get the consequences for doing so.. then u'll have to patch up every damages u've caused.. i think thts life.. thts something tht i shud reli learn, master and apply in future.. i have learnt my lesson already.. i have one more month before my AS exam.. i will have sufficient reading and i will get excellent straight As..couldn't be botheredenough with my study-laments.. i've got too many things to talk bout except for my own studies.. i am planning to learn piano.. this was a plan since.. hmm.. i dun remember when.. i guess its when i was form3.. i am planning to re-organize myself.. planning to discipline myself.. too many plans ahead.. and the most exciting & thrilling plan is.. after my AS exam.. i WILL go over to Singapore to shop till i DROP.. thts a reward for studying very very hard just for my beloved AS exam.. all ryte.. thts a deal..couldn't be botheredwhat can i say bout him? i've got nothing to complain about.. cuz i dunno wht shud i comment bout him.. we still talk on the phone everyday.. and my bunch of worries are still here with me.. tormenting me whenever i start thinking alot again.. shud i just clear up my worries with him? i shud.. i know tht.. but i just cant bring myself to talk to him bout it.. my aunt was asking me whther how sure am i tht he wont search for others when he is there and with this big distance? to be frank.. i reli dunno.. but i answered my aunt with plenty assurance saying tht i have faith in him.. i just dun want my mom to worry bout me.. and yeah.. my mom happened to know bout him.. cuz she saw us talking on the phone every night.. besides tht, wht other worries have i got? i dunno.. i feel scared.. and thts all i am SURE of.. i think i am beginning to fall for him.. thts bad aight? i know tht.. i am beginning to like him even more and more, till i might even start to love him and thts y i am scared tht it wont work.. i guess love reli makes me a greedy person.. now i want it to work.. wht bout future? how terrible can i be?couldn't be botheredP/S: Jackie.. are u all right?
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008 @ 10:46 AM
Let me keep u guys updated whther how pathetic my life is ryte now.. its pretty obvious tht m having my one week semester break.. i was supposed to hibernate and recharge/restore my already wear off battery.. just as i was happily fantasizing and imagining how happy i am going to spend my one week holiday in my dreamland.. reality striked like thunder striking a helpess tree.. my great grand aunt is coming to KL and is going to stay in our house.. first it was said tht she is only going to be here for a night.. but this had changed to 3nights..poor mewell... let me elaborate more.. the reason of me hating.. nawww.. not hate exactly.. despise.. i shouldn't use such strong word.. lets use the word 'dislike' then.. the reason i dislike her is.. Firstly, she is very very bossy.. she is a spoilt brat cuz yeah, she's the youngest daughter.. and prettiest.. and yeah.. wherever i hide (even in my closet) i can still hear her voice hunting for me.. searching a victim to poison their ears with high pitched + high frequency noise pollution.. she has a gifted talent.. that is her outstanding and alarming loud voice.. mayb i shouldn't include this as a reason cuz its not her fault afterall..poor mesecondly.. she has a Japanese husband.. well.. i DON'T despise japanese.. its just tht both of tht are cunning and malicious.. no joke.. i might have exaggerated abit.. but they didnt give me good impression during my 2 years staying in their house.. and lastly.. they have a *EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA* terrible daughter.. I AM NOT JOKING NOR EXAGGERATING.. her daughter is the most naughty-iest child on earth.. i haven seen a child this naughty before.. and especially she's a girl..poor mei think my insomnia "disease'' is back again.. m sleeping in my bro's room with my bro these few days.. m sleeping on the mattress, which is on the floor of cuz.. and yeah.. i reli can't sleep.. i can only sleep on my OWN BED.. and besides that, my bro has been playing games all night and he on the music while playing games.. he doesnt OFF it.. he only minimizes the volume.. but i didnt want to scold him either.. its his room afterall.. he has every rights to do so.. u ppl must be wondering, HEY, ur bro is playing games at nite.. wht bout the afternoon? i can sleep ryte? MY FOOT.. my neighbour is renovating their house.. so every renovating activities start at 10am every morning.. without fail..poor meso, can u see now.. how pathetic is my life right now.. wht i can do now is to mourn infront of the monitor and type everything in my blog.. P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C
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Monday, September 15, 2008 @ 12:31 AM
Song: wo zhi zai hu ni (su da lu)http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/230516ht.htm不知道为甚么今天想写华语，可能是不想让任何人明白我在写什么的关系吧！有时候知道了一些别人都不知道的事情不见得会比较开心！所以大家终不要认为知道每一件事就见得比别人开心！所谓有苦说不出啊！有谁明白呢？又有谁真正的了解我呢？最讨厌就是自以为很了解我的人！你认为你很了解我吗？真可笑，你怎么能了解一个连自己都不了解自己的人？所以不要再这么自以为是了！i care for u朋友都问我最近好吗，我真的不知道要怎么回答他们！我好吗？答案是我真的不知道！怎样才算好而怎样算不好呢？朋友又问我，有男友了吗？这又是一个让我觉得十分烦恼的问题！到底要怎么回答他们呢？就说没有好了，反正我懒得解释！也不懂得怎么解释！你却问我到底我想他吗？是的，我很想他！有好多好多话都想跟他讲，可是不会，不懂，也不想告诉他！是因为我们还在尴尬期吗？不是！是因为我不懂得要怎么开口告诉他！妈妈常问我会不会担心他喜欢上别人？我却很镇定的回答说一点都不会，因为我相信他，他也值得我的信任！可是心里真的这么想吗？其实我很担心也在害怕！怎么办呢？我也问过他这个问题了，他说他不能保证不会也不能保证会！至少他对我很老实吧！你却问我到底有多喜欢他啊？我不知道，我只知道我很喜欢他而已！我的情绪都被他牵动着！爱他吗？还没爱他！可是直觉告诉我，如果再继续这样下去，难免会爱上他！我绝对不是一个容易爱上别人的人！i care for u祝天底下有情人终成眷属！
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Monday, September 1, 2008 @ 11:44 PM
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