Saturday, July 5, 2008 @ 12:29 AM
Song: Landy Wen Lan (zhu wo sheng ri kuai le)http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/68541ht.htmdepressed?when was the last time i updated my blog? i dun remember.. and i'm not gonna bother.. i'm too tired to squeeze my brain juice for such tiny things.. my IELTS test is on nez month 30th i think.. i think i should start speaking in proper english to get myself a good grade for English.. i got a new resolution, a new wish that i have to fulfill.. i should reli start studying and keep everything aside.. my classmates actually spent their break time to study.. they also spent most of their time after class, at home to study.. i feel so inferior for not studying? i feel bad for being discriminated for not studying yet getting good grades?depressed?i am currently chatting with the bugger and Louis.. Louis told the bugger tht he likes me.. i dun know wht shud i do.. i tot Louis didnt like me already.. Louis's nickname sound depair, disappointed and he's in depression.. but i dun seem to bother either.. sometimes i feel so ugly for myself.. for being so mean.. but i think wht i'm doing here is just to stop him from letting himself to continue placing false hopes on me.. wht i am trying to do here is to stop him from falling deeper.. but i dun think anyone seem to understand.. they will just look at me with a ugly way and think how mean i am for treating him this way.. depressed?tht bugger told me louis told him he likes me.. and he typed 'hahaha'.. why he sounds happy when someone tells him tht he likes someone u like? and why on earth am i feeling heartache at this moment?depressed?P/S: I never expected anyone to understand.. but i din expect noone to understand..
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