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Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @ 9:42 PM

angst

today's post is gonna be in dead black.. i think it describes how i feel now.. i argued with my parents yesterday if m not wrong.. mom scolded me tht i went out everyday after class la, bla bla... she said she's giving me freedom but i dun know how to use it la... but has she ever told me what shud i do and wht shudnt? i tot she was just giving me freedom like how other 18yrs old gal gets.. they're just being over protective.. i didnt argue with her anyway.. i just looked at her with a very sarcastic way and said ya.. then went up to my room to sleep.. then today.. another issue which i reli think it is ridiculous. class ended at 5.30 today.. and there was this very terrible jam when we were stuck there for 1 n a half hr if m not mistaken.. not moving at all.. and i actually called and already informed her bout it.. then louis n iris decided to get Mcd as their dinner.. so of cuz lar.. i had to go.. ppl fetching me home and its quite impossible for me to complain so much ryte.. then she called.. she shouted la.. said i lied to her izit? kesas will jam till this bad meh? then i told her.. they went to buy Mcd as dinner.. she said my dad wants me to quite studying in Sunway.. sad ryte.. how sadistic these ppl are? i told them.. the reason y i study in Sunway is becuz this is one of the most recognize college in Malaysia.. if i do good in this college, i would get a scholarship easily.. and she said my dad wouldnt allow me to go overseas eventho i get a scholarship.. how sadistic ppl from the olden days ryte? u get an opportunity to do well in ur future career.. and they just banned it because they are being over protective.. FUNNY RYTE? and if i wanna quit studying there or not.. it shud be decided by me ryte? it is MY FUTURE.. it is not something like how u all did to me when i was a child.. they just wouldnt understand wht i am thinking.. wht they would say is.. u'll never understand until u be a parent urself.. ya.. i admit tht i will never understand until i be a parent myself.. but how sure are u tht u trully understands me eventho u are my parents.. how well do u know me? i dunno.. but i think m rlei thinking negatively.. i feel like dying.. i feel like the world is just so cruel..

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Saturday, April 26, 2008 @ 2:06 AM

ROBIN

Just happened to know Robin is going back to Sarawak for his Matrix.. Sad tho.. he's leaving.. after like knowin him for a month plus.. just gonna start forming emotional bond.. sigghh.. i dun like the feeling tht my frens are leaving me.. left me behind and they continue moving on in their life.. i wonder if he'll remember me.. he might just forget bout me as soon as he get new frens there.. and and and.. he's only coming back after a year.. sighh.. reli miss u lar! He likes ice skating.. m gonna teman him to ice skating a day.. before he leaves us.. *emo-ing* we are gonna bring him around kl before he goes back.. i reli hope tht he will remember us and we can stay as close as we are now.. m gonna snap pictures of him before h goes back. and we already planned to have a cake-smashing party + water festival on his last day here..

am beginning to think that Econs is hard.. needs alot of brainstorming.. it is reli hard for me.. as my brain is always asleep during Econs.. but i have to do good in it.. or else how can i even get a scholarship? i think i better start focusing.. today i proved that my dad sucks again.. he promised us to bring us to times square for our dinner.. but it ended up by this way.. he purposely find some excuses not going out.. so the whole family got nth to eat for dinner.. except for himself.. i wonder if he ever feels guilty for wht he has done all these while?

found out tht Louis and Samuel are reli good people.. just now was quite emo.. and louis actually told me tht m cute, sweet, pretty when i smile.. so i shud smile more. i told him i haven makan.. n he said he wanna tapau for me.. and he's in Genting now.. so i kindly reminded him tht he's in Genting.. and its quite dangerous to drive up alone later.. bout Samuel.. Samuel tried to cheer me up after knowing tht i am feeling emo.. i like him lar.. such a gud person.. humorous.. ad he offered to b there for me whenever i needed help or needed someone to tok to.. thts so good of u guys la.. mayb wait till the day we're gonna graduate.. i'll reli cry..

WILL MISS U, ROBIN

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Monday, April 21, 2008 @ 11:45 PM

of sudden craving

louis : ppl think tht u're my gf lar
mindy : O_O hmmmm WHYYY
louis : iris talked bout u today.. and they keep askin me wht have i done to u.. blah blah
already with very bad mood swing.. *thinking wht is these people thinking*

mindy : oh okayy.. weii did u guys get ur psycho paper back today?
louis : ur paper is with me.. guess how much u get ?/40..
mindy : must be reli bad lahh.. dah tauu..
louis : NOO.. u got 32..
mindy : i feeel bad lar louis.. who got the highest?
louis : Jun meng.. 39..
another storm came into my life * wht mind has he got... SHIT MYSELF for not gettin the highest*

mindy : FATIINN.. how much u got for psycho?
fatin : ows hi.. urmm.. 32
mindy : hi5.. i feel bad
fatin : hmmm y? we got the highest..
mindy : i tot jun meng got 29?
fatin : 29 larrrrr.. and ms ida actually said "some did well in gettin 32.. thts already an A"
* ows ok.. sorry Jun Meng.. welll.. louis.. u suck =PPPP *

well.. actually today i memang MALAS la.. so i kinda skipped class..

by saying i teman dad to hospital for his surgery la.. Whttt.. and i felt guilty merr..

i felt guilty for procrastinating lar.. and ow yea.. m craving badly for burger now..

but definately not McD burger la.. thts the point.. and i cant drivee.. godd.. i need a driver bf.. to send me delivery whenever i am hungry.. nvm.. i'll get my dad to buy for me.. and yeah.. YAY for my psycho paper 1!

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Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 2:53 PM

of i am back!

i am backkk.. well.. i was too bz to update my post larrhh *excuses* college life started.. everything changed from 0 to 1.. met some bitchy and bimbotic gals... met some reli good ppl. met some rich brats.. i dunno.. not gonna bother bout them. life's good =)

* aside from some reli bimbotice girls *

i am beginning to think that girls are reli bimbotic la.. MACAM MANA!

they dont think before they do? they dont think before the say nething!

GOSHH! am a girl larr.... mayb i'll be bash up for saying tht..

mayb hormone changes? urm urm urm.. i dunnnoo

i have to get rid of this kinda thoughts la..

and the worst part is.. i myself, am a girl

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