am i done talking about my dad? i don't know.. i have too many things in mind to write bout him.. i remembered him as a very unhappy part of the memories of my life... until now.. one more thing.. whenever he's not in the mood.. he would just come home n shout at everyone at home.. is this the correct way with handling stress and tensions? lets talk about my mother then.. mom's a really good person to be honest.. a good person if you're her fren.. not reli a good person when you know her well.. but noone's perfect in this world ryte.. i know.. the biggest mistake in my mom's life was to get married to my father.. thts my point of view.. and i think thts her point of view too.. as i have mentioned bout my dad before.. my mom loves my brother very much.. until she gives me everything to do.. she gave nothing to my brother.. i'm very confident in saying this.. i had been counting whther wht are the house chores tht i do at home.. i mop the floor, i sweep the floor, i fold the clothes, i wash the balcony everyweek, i bathe my dog, i wash the plates and i wash the toilet too.. sometimes i would just get lazy.. lazy to do those chores.. lazy to bathe the dog.. lazy to wash the balcony.. and she would just scold n scold.. and lecture me and told me some bad and insulting words like "don't try to act stupid again..'' do u know tht it hurts mom? although i did not show it.. there's just no sense of justice.. eventho i know tht nothing is fair in this world.. there are times when my back reli hurts alot too.. to b precise.. my back hurts all the time.. and she's still being so inconsiderate.. let me ask those ppl who are reading this post.. izit wrong or inappropriate to ask my brother to clear everything on his floor before i tidyhis room? my brother's room is always so dirty.. everything would be everywhere and all over his floor.. he would pick up those things.. and left some on the floor under the bed.. eventually i would sweep them out.. there are also some tht cant be swept.. its too deep under the bed.. and my mom would SHOUT at me.. ask me to BEND and sweep again.. she even blackmailed me tht she would ask me to sweep ALL OVER AGAIN.. lol.. and i would be angry.. complaining in my heart.. why she couldnt be considerate? lol.. i'm a coward.. i never dared to speak out.. i told her once.. it is my brother's room.. why am i the one who would being scolded when those things are still on the floor? thts my brother's room.. she said.. both of you are just the same.. lol.. whts the same? i don't know.. u know wht? my bro is already 13years old.. i'm still washing his school shoes for him.. eventho i'm not gonna wash my sch shoe for this week.. mom would still ask me [in the way of scolding] to wash my brother's shoe only.. and is this abit too much, those who are readin this post? just few days ago.. mom asked me to do some laundry.. i was quite rejecting her.. and u know wht she told me? she told me tht its everyones' duty in the family.. i asked her.. wht bout brother? he did nothing at all.. but sitting infront of the computer monitor and waiting to be sucked into the computer.. u know wht she said? she smiled and said brother is a diff story..lol.. after my research.. i came out a conclusion.. every sentence tht my mom talk to me.. bout 30% are actually askin me to do me a favour.. isnt this sad? lol.. mom's a generous person.. but not to me.. mom told me she spends about 1000+ a month on my brother.. on his PC games.. tht day she bought me a rm450 watch from swatch.. i told her i would pay her bak., she told me immediately tht this is my birthday present.. she knows tht i wanted an Ipod so long ago.. talking about Ipod.. she promised to buy an Ipod since this year july.. but until now.. wht have i got? my brother complained to me few months ago tht she promised my brother to buy a new PC for my brother.. and she didnt buy for him.. immediately.. she bought for him a new PC.. rm3000++... isnt this more expensive than buying me an Ipod? my brother still can use his old PC whht... its still brand new u know?when i on the air con.. mom would tell me.. haiiyoorrr.. on so long the air con i'm sure ur dad will scold.. when my brother on the air cond for the WHOLE DAY.. she said nothing.. am i being sensitive or wht? i just want to be treated equally as my brother.. but i guess its impossible.. i just have to treat myself better and only me,myself and i can do this.. noone can ever bear to take this responsibility.. cuz i would never let my heart to be broken into shattered pieces again..
