i don't know y but i am so emo recently.. izit bcuz of the manga tht i have been reading? was it because of the story tht makes me feel sad too? i have been thinking the whole nite laz nite.. i guess it was bcuz tht we're leaving sch this coming mon.. officially leaving.. cuz spm ends at this monday.. i think i'm just weird, ryte? few weeks ago i was still hoping tht spm could end faster so i wouldnt b a burden to me anymore.. but now i'm feeling sad tht m leaving sch and leaving all my classmates.. i'm crazy.. i rememered wht my mom told me few days ago when i was telling her bout my frens.. she told me tht frens come n go and our age.. i knew this from the beginning.. but i just find it hard to accept.. i mean.. i reli wanna find a TRUE fren.. a fren who wouldn't mind being there for u no matter wht.. a fren who would ask u out and shop together..a fren who would share anything to me.. a fren who i would reli open my heart.. lol.. but i guess it's just hard..
i think i'm emo cuz of this too.. i was and i have always been dreaming bout my future prince charming.. lol.. sounds crazy isn't it.. i have always been dreaming bout a guy.. who's rich.. i know those who r reading this post will think tht m just a materialistic gal like those gals out there.. but i wouldnt mind admittin this.. yes i am.. i love money.. so is it wrong or wht? money matters in this world,k? money makes this world goes round n round.. u nid money to continue living on.. or wht r u gonna eat for breakfast,lunch n dinner? i just dun wanna worry bout money so i nid a rich guy.. and a guy who would love me,care for me, understands me and endures me.. a guy who would see me as the whole world to him.. a loyal guy.. who wouldnt flirt around with gals out there.. but this kinda guy extinct redi.. rich guys are mostly very flirty or flowery heart.. or (like wht mymom have told me) they are mentally unstable. lol.. altho i knew tht this kinda guy extinct redi.. but i still keep hoping for a guys like tht to appear in my life.. and at the same time.. i do feel sad.. knowing tht my future prince charming only exist in my collection of mangas n novels.. lol..
ah.. yes.. and spm is gonna end this monday.. the last subject is biology.. and today is saturday.. i haven started reading yet.. i was thinking laz nite.. wht am i gonna do after spm?living aimlessly? i dun wanna have tht type of life.. i guess i'm just gonna work till college starts.. at least i wont have too much time to think nonsense.. as my brain is always working way too much on thinking nonsense.. after thinking all those crazy stuff, i'lll feel sad and miserable.. tht's crazy isn't it.. but tht's my way of living.. and i have been thinking.. wht is the reason for me to keep living on all these while?
