Best Friend.. They should be ur closest fren.. they should be there when u need them.. they should be there to listen.. They should be there when u're down. They should be the one comforting u.. They should be the one who will be there for u when u need them.. They should be the one who tells u wht u're wrong at.. They should be the one supporting u when u're down.. I USED to have a best fren.. A person i thought she's reli goin to be my best fren and i treated her well.. but wht i got at the end was just disappoinment..
Today was Appreciation Day in school.. ELS (an English club in my sch) they held this day by selling and delivering apples to those u wanted to give them.. I gave an apple to Kar Mun.. with this message "Don't Cry Too Much".. lolxxx.. She was very happy recieving those apples from Celia, Siok Leng, Mei Soon and I.. All ryte.. bak to appreciation day.. There was this gal, A.. My so-called best friend.. She bought an apple for this gal, B.. Wiv a message "thanks for everything".. It's not tht i'm being possessive or wht.. I'm the one who is alwiz here when u need me.. I'm the one who treated u beta than they way she does [thts true].. And why i don't deserve an apple then? It's all ryte.. i'm reli starting to feel disappointed.. starting to feel tired of having this feeling.. i don't understand whther why i alwiz fail keeping a best friend in my life..
Best Friend.. they come and they leave.. should i just get used of this thing and let it happen again and again? am i bad or wht? i reli don't understand.. I tried to make something out of it.. I tried to tell her tht m not perfect.. i tried to tell her tht i'll try to change if she thinks tht m not gud.. but she didnt say anything bout it.. Best Friends?
inspires
Sunday, June 17, 2007 @ 7:46 PM
I'm stronger now
I'm feeling stronger now.. =) I trust u.. I'll be awaiting for ur return.. Pls come home soon.. Cuz i dunno how long i can wait for all these to end.. I wish all this could END NOW..
Nice song..
I love u
signing out.
inspires
6:09 PM
My father's day
Complicated feelings now.. This is a song to describe how i feel now:
I’m starting to feel better ryte now.. But I still do miss u very much.. Tiring day today.. I'm actually watching "Be my Guest" now.. Toking bout lydia sum.. Blogspot is having some prob actually.. or mayb it's my comp prob.. lolxx.. i feel better now!! i confronted the person i USED to dislike.. i feel better this way.. I don't dislike her anymore.. I don't put the blames on her anymore.. Girls have their way of solving their own prob u c.. lolxx..
When u have a mindset on how idiot the person is.. no matter what others say u wont get it.. I'm happy tht we're still frens actually.. I mean.. She's a good fren.. At least i do admire her cuz she reacts bluntly to ppl.. It good.. at least if compared to those gals who have two sided face.. =.=" all ryte.. Straighforward is good when it doesn't hurt anyone.. Straightforward is bad when it hurts someone.. Anyway.. I'm reli happy tht we're ok now.. lolxx.. starry! where r u.. i wanna tell u this actually.. lolxxx..
Girls tend to see things in diff perspective after they experienced something.. Lydia Sum said love is blind.. lolxxx.. thts truee!! I'm bloggin when i haven finish my hw.. ARGHH! Nvm nvm.. chill* one hw oni.. karangan oni.. lolxxx.. I have a clearer vision now.. =)
It's father's day today.. my dad is not here wiv us.. i think we are quite used to it already.. Last year's father's day.. we bought a cake and we celebrated it.. =D this year is diff.. lolxxx.. "Be my Guest" is a nice show.. I sms-ed u and asked u.. whether do u still love me anot.. there's no reply.. until now.. are u sleeping? are u bz? or u just dun wanna reply? Do u still love me? I reli wanna knw.. At least give me an answer.. no matter wht the answer is.. If u were to leave.. I'll respect ur decision.. If u were to stay wiv me.. I'm glad and grateful.. and i'll cherish u more..
I saw this in kell's blog.. and i find it meaningful..
A million words would not bring u bak, cuz i tried, A million tears would not bring u bak, cuz i cried.
inspires
12:06 AM
3rd post for today
I think this is the 3rd post for today.. I've been waiting for u infront of my laptop for.. Hmmm.. 9 hours? thinking tht mayb u would come online? at least i know tht u're ok? hmmm.. but u didnt.. lolxxx.. i've been waiting for ur message for.. hmmm.. 5 hours... i was wondering.. whther are u ok anot.. I was worrying.. whther will u b ok anot.. I kept waiting for u cuz i reli wanted to be there for u.. when u're down or miserable.. cuz i tot mayb u nid me.. but i guess u just dont..
I reli wanted to be with u when u're down or miserable.. I knw tht i can't do anything.. I can't comfort u.. I'll just be sad wiv u.. useless i know.. but i guess i just failed again.. Sorry.. I kept thinking whther wht happened actually.. but i can't get it.. I reli wanted to sms u and ask u whther wht happened.. altho i know tht u're not gonna answer my question.. at least i knw something..
I hope everythin will be all ryte soon.. I hope this would end soon.. I hope we would just get bak as close as how we used to be soon.. I hope u would reply me at least something soon.. Lots of hope are popping out from my heart.. like a bubble.. greedy me.. wiv a heart of greed.. U asked me not to be worried of u.. not to care for u.. and ignore u.. I cant do tht.. cuz i love u very much.. Eventho sumtimes i told u tht m tired of waiting for u... but i'm still waiting.. yet.. now i'm still waiting..
I guess I can't wait anymore.. I'm feeling sleepy and headache now.. so as tired.. Backache too.. again.. How gud if u were here for me.. Everything i do reminds me of u.. I miss u..
Signing out.
inspires
Saturday, June 16, 2007 @ 5:25 PM
Color
Recently, i asked my classmate this question: " if u were given a color.. wht color would u choose to describe me?"
These are their answer:
Blue
Light blue
Pink
White
Black
Orange
Yellow
Red
Peach
Maroon
Purple
These are the explanations:
Tranquil, Intuitive, trustworthy
Peaceful, Sincere, Affectionate
Friendly, Compassionate, Faithful
goodness, innocence
Elegance, Mysterious, Power
Happy, Courageous, Sucessful
Enthusiastic, Playful, Optimistic
Energy, Determination, Passion
* It has the same meaning as pink*
courage, bravery, heroism, and strength
Spiritual, Passionate, Visionary
inspires
4:23 PM
a confession to make
It's raining now.. i felt so emotional suddenly.. maybe its cuz of the song I've just heard a few seconds ago.. i can't watch Astro now.. maybe they shud have invent sumthin so tht we can watch it eventho its raining or anything.. I'm feeling so empty without u wiv me.. i guess i reli do rely on u all the time.. is this a good thing or a bad thing? i wonder wht happened last nite.. *sigh.. mayb i shud have just wait till u are ready to tell me wht's happening.. All ryte.. i'll just wait then.. cuz i can't force u to tell me.. cuz u wont tell if u dun feel like telling me.. altho i'm angry or wht.. my "so called" best friend is chatting with his girl.. neglecting me.. sad though.. my bro is playing wiv his "addictive" online games.. mom is in Subang? Dad is working.. he's supposed to come home at this time.. but he didnt.. shud i say tht its a good thing? at least i dun need to get scolded or anything.. i guess he's just getting older.. the older he gets, the more he nags..
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/24233ht.htm Very meaningful song.. I'm not a romantic person.. I can't say things tht are romantic.. I find it hard to express my feelings at times.. cuz i feel embarassed.. btw.. its a chinese song.. lolxx
I'm starting to feel tht I'm useless.. Am i useless or wht?
I'm not artistic
I'm not smart/ I'm dumb
I'm not hardworking
I can't keep things in my heart cuz I'll convey my feelings
I'm a hot tempered person
I'm sarcastic if i dislike u
I'm an emotional person
I'll cry first if anythin goes wrong
I'm a ruthless person if i hate u
I can't help myself from toking bad bout u wiv my close frens if i dislike u
I'm not understanding
I can't comfort ppl
I can't do anything for u when u're sad or when u're down.. I could just feel sad and down.. I couln't do anything else
inspires
3:58 PM
when u're gone [avril]
I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus] When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you
I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you,I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you
We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were, yeah All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you
inspires
Friday, June 15, 2007 @ 10:10 PM
In the car
mom.. when r u coming bak?
they are gonna say tht i dye my hair again.. =.="
whyy?!
i look sleepy =.=
Sepia!
BLUEKKK!
look at those darkholes.. ARGH
inspires
Sunday, June 10, 2007 @ 9:04 PM
heart breaking thing
na
this is all about a heart breaking thing.. u said i'm not open minded enuf.. mayb i'm not.. we argued over this issue.. over this particular girl.. no matter how heart breakin it is.. u juz dun knw how to avoid this person.. why? ouh ok.. she's ur fren.. and wht if i'm the one who did all these and i still dun avoid tht guy? mayb u won't feel anythin.. cuz u're open minded? ALL RYTE.. i don't knw how to act tht i'm strong anymore.. i tried my best to be open minded.. i tried my best to endure.. i tried my best to pretend tht m strong.. i tried my best to pretend tht i'm open minded.. but it isn't working.. i didnt knw tht both of u were this close.. i felt.. heartborken.. or mayb insecure.. i dunno wht can i do ryte now.. i felt so lost.. am i wrong for having this feeling? am i not open minded enuf?
can i reli throw my heart away? brainwash myself? wash away all those memories of u in my mind? i wish i could turn bak time.. turn bak the time when i have met u in my life.. haven started this relationship.. at least i could forget easier.. at least i could give up easily.. some told me tht i shudn't think so much.. but i'm not!! i didnt think.. some told me i shudn't care so much.. i wish i didn't care bout u so much.. i wish i didn't care so much in this relationship.. some told me tht "lettin go is hard, but holdin on wiv a person who doesn't feel the same is harder"
inspires
Wednesday, June 6, 2007 @ 6:26 PM
My namee XD
A: HOT B: Loves people C: really easy to fall in love w/ D: Has beautiful eyes E: Is Really Sweet F: People wild and crazy adore you G: Very outgoing H: Easy to fall in love with I: LOVE TO LAUGH AND SMILE J: Makes people laugh K: Really silly L: best smile M: Makes dating fun N: Can kick your ass O: Has one of the best personalitiesever P: Popular with all types of people Q: A hypocrite R: Good bf/gf S: Lives life for fun T: Great kisser U: Is Veary Sexuall V: Not judgmental W: Very broad minded X: Never let people tell you what to do Y: is loved by everyone Z: Is great in bed
mom.. when r u coming bak?
they are gonna say tht i dye my hair again.. =.="
whyy?! 
i look sleepy =.=
Sepia!
BLUEKKK!
look at those darkholes.. ARGH
i look great XD